Having pledged on Monday to post each day of Eating Disorders Awareness Week (EDAW) 2016, I let the side down on day 2 – but not because I’d already forgotten about EDAW. On the contrary, I though of little else but my own issues with food yesterday.
Specifically, my Sister and I had a long overdue chat during which I disclosed every shameful little detail of my current battle – right down to the chaos involved in an episode of binging/purging. To be so frank and candid is unlike me, but something tells me that I can’t overcome this alone…and I really do want to overcome it.
I needn’t have feared. My Sister wasn’t repelled, or disgusted. Heck, she wasn’t even especially surprised. We talked and talked, about food and everything else. We planned a way forward, or the first few steps at least. We came up with a couple of longer term goals, a sort of graded exposure if you like, or an elephant in bite-sized chunks.
I’m glad EDAW made sure that my own problems are at the forefront of my mind, and not just something else I step over, or skirt around, every day. I’m glad I’ve read so many inspiring stories that have made me stop and acknowledge my difficulties. I’m glad I confided in my Sister because, no matter how irritating it might become, I can’t fight this without someone on my back, needling me, giving me permission to eat.