Today has been an odd sort of a day. I can’t put my finger on any particular trigger, but I’m feeling quite dissociated, separate, and not really of myself. I feel like I’m seeing everything through a haze, and I’m running on autopilot. This would all be fine, it’s nothing I haven’t experienced before and I know it will pass. But it’s a bit more sustained than anything I’ve endured before, and I’ve done a couple of strange things, driven, it would seem, by some external force.
I know I need to talk this through with someone. I have a meeting with my CPN scheduled for tomorrow afternoon, but I also have a missed call from the CMHT number, so I’m fully expecting her to cancel our appointment. There is no contingency plan; I have no further (one-to-one contact) planned until June.
Anyway, I’m sorry there is no real point to this post, that I haven’t (as I like to do) worked through my thoughts/emotions and come to some kind of analytical conclusion. I just wanted to empty my head a little.